| nightmare after new years |
[Jan. 3rd, 2009|05:57 am] |
It's like clutching a dancing flame in the palm of your hand, mesmerizing yet after a while the heat gets unbearable.
I've just awoken from a horrible, horrible dream. And now sleep is universes away. I nearly called you, so entirely convinced that my dream was reality, before the haze of sleep faded away. It was surreal really, this morbid premonition of sorts. For sadly enough, it seems an entirely plausible reality. What exactly it means, I don't quite want to delve into but I just hope that your pull has lost it's effect on me.
Do I still love you? No. Do I still care? Definitely.
The image of you connected to countless machines, your deathly pale lips, the beep of your pounding heart, your sweaty palms, the clammy feel of hospitals, your harsh whispers, the flush of un-understood language, your shivering hands and your ragged breaths, all burnt onto my conscious.
I hope you're alive. I hope you're safe. I hope you're happy.
Maybe it's simply a case of absence making the heart grow wronger? But yes, I won't deny that I'm fond of you, and if things were different they'd be perfect. But things are different and therefore not perfect. Oh well.
On an entirely different note, Dora came by today. She's great fun. I really hope she doesn't forget what to say tomorrow, gosh things should work out for that girl, she really deserves it. mmm. AND IF ANYONE IS READING HER BLOG AND ACCIDENTLY STUMBLES UPON MINE, FESS UP TO IT I SAY, the benefits you'd reap from that simple confession would be... well just fess up alright? I think I'll go back to reading my chick lit novel, before I try my hand at more arabic.
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From: (Anonymous)
2009-01-05 10:13 pm (UTC)
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hey sharmie!
i had a dream of you, nat and kav last night, we were getting whipped cream everywhere I HAVE NO IDEA WHY.
i'm really unhappy that we're all so distant now (well, okay, me) and I really hope we'll reunite somewhere sometime!! Sad I didnt get to meet you when I went to SG - so many people, so little time, so much work too. I miss you bunches!
Your blog entry sounds really woeful - what happened? Ah 2 years ago I would know, but now I don't, and I feel like slapping myself for that. Gah hope i'll talk to u soon k dearie! Please take care!
lotsoflove, grace
Oh gosh you're back in princeton already?!?! Damn we didn't get to meet up. I really hope we catch up soon, perhaps I'll come visit sometime!
Whipped cream?!! The images that brings to mind...well let's just leave it at that why don't we?
hmmm 2 years have gone by pretty quick! But don't worry I'm sure we'll fill each other in as soon as we meet up (:
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