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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2009|10:55 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | rejuvenated]
[Current Music |David Bowie feat. NIN - I'm afraid of Americans]


tarabas, o tarabas!
you're SO much more worthy of love than fuckindamngkajgkahgkjh romualdo.
okay, yes, silly fan crush on ... nicholas rogers -dies-


i cant believe i stumbled on this after like... 9 freakin years.

i wonder if there's any DVD rental shops that actually still rent out this movie.

klajkjg


Sigh.


I'm off.

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i realised [Nov. 9th, 2009|11:54 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | calm]
[Current Music |Akiko Shikata - Ave Maria]

i havent had a genuinely happy post in a while.

surprised navi today.
haha it was fun!
havent had tiny little gatherings like these in a long long time.


just got home.
and im tired already.

i think im aging too fast.

everyday i wake up,
i think of tioman island.

me want to go there.



me wants to do many things me is stopping meself from doing.

and me got noone to blame but me.

me will now go drink tea.
and do work.

goodnight.

i'm off.
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(no subject) [Nov. 9th, 2009|11:41 pm]
saintsatyriasis

It's difficult. It's so hard. It's bad enough that I have to deal with the A's, but now this? There are some things which we cannot do alone... I don't know if this is a statement that is true for everyone, or if it is nurtured into us because of our social interactions and relationships. Through them, we form dependence. But does that really make us weaker? If we need someone to stay up on the phone through the night when we feel terrible, or a consolatory conversation to ease the aching soul, are we being needy? Does that truly count as being incapable of standing up for ourselves? No. I don't think so. I don't know what to expect from people, and this has always been the case, but recent experiences have made me doubt even more.

It's very clear to me. The weekend was great, sure. But when I needed you, it was when you decided that everything else was suddenly more important. I will do without you. I can, I must, I will.

The A levels is really quite a hellish experience, and that's not for a lack of a better word. If hell really existed, the devil would put us through A levels for eternity.

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(no subject) [Nov. 9th, 2009|12:56 pm]

iadmiregays

yay i got all my bids! even though i overbid fa+as by 15bucks, it's okay. at least i have 4 cus now.
GOD IS GOOD! (:

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alone. we have become. [Nov. 8th, 2009|08:58 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | distressed]
[Current Music |Chevelle - Still Running]

i no longer feel satisfaction,
in the light of everything that has been happening.
i miss the feeling of being genuinely satisfied with my work,
and feeling proud of who i am.
i miss being able to look in the mirror,
and smile.

they're just leading us along.


when i say i need a break from this place,
people dont get it.
they think its just one of those phase-shit we're going through.

they dont understand the chaos of a mind that sees no peace when staring at a blank wall.
they dont understand the the itch to do something worthwhile.
they dont understand the need to be alone - so as to salvage whatever is left.

"picking and choosing to screw all of us,
one by one"




i want it gone.

I'm off.
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(no subject) [Nov. 7th, 2009|03:31 am]

iadmiregays

i am so frickin screwed. i just got home and suddenly remembered that i've the damn ltb peer evaluation to do by 11:59pm 6 nov. i went to rush to the comp, turn on the internet, and DAMN IT. the thing is closed. i'm gonna have 1 mark deducted from my participation grade. damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as if my ltb grade couldnt get any worse. argh!!!!!!!!

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awfully busy [Nov. 6th, 2009|08:48 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | annoyed]
[Current Music |silence]

first day at awfully chocolate today.
busy busy busy!
i teared at a certain part during the job - yes cause im a crybaby like that - cause i had NO idea what to do and there were SO MANY CUSTOMERS WAITING!

stress sia.

im not sure why i even asked you for the favor.
i would have been better off not telling anyone about it.
now i feel indebted,
and pathetic.


i can handle this shit on my own.
and if its meant to be the end of me,
very well. thats just the way it is.


i dont know why i felt the need to ask you for 'company' and 'assistance' in the shape of presence.

i dont know why i felt the need to WANT you there, cause i am genuinely scared, and no one knows.

i dont why i let my guard down.




fret not dora,
its up.

I'm off.
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LiveJournal Major Notes: Spam counter-attack, RSS feeds again, CSI Deadly Intent contest [Nov. 5th, 2009|01:15 pm]

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The empire strikes back

In recent weeks, we've taken huge steps towards blocking spam accounts on LiveJournal. In fact, we've suspended as many as 30,000 accounts in a single day! We've implemented several pre-emptive measures to prevent the creation of spam accounts, and we've honed our detection of suspicious content. Spam bots are a crafty lot, so we'll continue to refine our tactics and keep up the good fight to keep you safe from spam attacks on LiveJournal.

RSS feeds again

If you're addicted to [info]xkcd_rss, [info]icanhaschzbrgr, or other syndicated feeds, we're pleased to report that we've resolved the update error that was mucking up your RSS feeds. While content was being pulled correctly, it wasn't being posted to the feeds themselves. Late last week, we finally nailed down what we hope was the root problem, so content should post properly. We thank you for your patience.

Wii have killer CSI Deadly Intent contests!



[info]c_s_i

If you're a gamer who loves CSI, have Wii got news for you! [info]c_s_i is sponsoring killer contests. Simply post a question to a member of the CSI crew. The winner will get a free copy of CSI: Deadly Intent for Nintendo Wii (with a retail value of $39.99) and get their question answered by a member of the CSI writing team! There's also a fantastic monthly contest. To enter, join [info]c_s_i, play the online version of CSI: Deadly Intent, and respond to a two-part query for a chance to win a Wii! Entries will be judged on composition and originality. Sorry, but you must be a U.S. resident and over 18 years old to participate. Check out the rules here.

Enveloped in postcards

Last week, we asked you to send in postcards to help us decorate our drab concrete walls. Here's a photo of the results so far! Thank you so much and please keep them coming! You can mail them to Frank the Goat, Esq., c/o LiveJournal, Inc., 539 Bryant Street, Suite 210, San Francisco, CA 94107. Be sure to include your username, since we'll be giving ten random users paid account credits.



Photos of the week

If you haven't visited our new LiveJournal photo community, you're in for an amazing visual trip. LiveJournal users from around the world will take you on a scenic journey to everywhere. Post your own pictures or kick back and enjoy at [info]lj_photophile. You can view some of this week's awesome photos after the jump. Please start tagging with geographic location, since we'd like to track all the places around the world represented in this community. Keep on commenting too!
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listen to the music. [Nov. 5th, 2009|08:05 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | calm]

listening to WOMAD' 07.

its interesting listening to music that's not in a language you understand.
it just gets you to really dwell in the music. and the music for what it purely is.






if only it was simple to view life that way.
simple.
concise.


i miss you more with every passing day.


I'm off.
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Vitas [Nov. 5th, 2009|03:00 pm]
saintsatyriasis

Five more days. Just five more days before this all ends. The emotional and mental pressure, the ubiquitous guilt, the need to put away everything just for this. It'll all be over before I know it.

When my last paper is finally over, I will walk to the hawker center across the school, settle down and have a scrumptious meal. Following which I will walk the two kilometer journey home, all the while just reveling in the fact that the biggest examination of my life is over. I will reach home, open my door and walk in, embracing the air of freedom, knowing that I no longer have to coerce myself into studying when I don't want to. I'll take a hot and refreshing shower, and when I'm done with that, walk slowly to my bed and just lie down. I won't think about anything. I will just lie there. Perhaps put pink floyd on my speakers, a hot cup of coffee and a relaxing cigarette.

When all that is over, I will cab to tampines and purchase the long-desired Warcraft 3 disc, and maybe also Sims 3 if I have enough money. I will lock myself in my room to play, and no one will hear from me for a week.

On friday of the same week I end, I will be going away with the band. I will enjoy myself.

I will work hard so that these will count for something.

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lyrics [Nov. 3rd, 2009|12:43 am]

sunhorizon
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[Current Location |I know I'm trying to survive]
[Current Mood |I know it's good to be alive]
[Current Music |My Skin - Natalie Merchant]

Do you remember the way that you touched me before? )
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there's nothing to our plans. [Nov. 2nd, 2009|09:32 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | cheerful]
[Current Music |Depeche Mode - In Sympathy]

i am so so so so happy with the second ink.

its absolutely, most absolutely, gorgeous.
thats what i think.
and thats what matters. what I I I I I I I I I I I THINK.

i was lucky enough to get a tattoo artist who is absolutely dedicated to what he does,
and im so so so so happy with it =D










so happy. yet so empty.

christ, whats with this game?
a fuckin bad joke or something?
cause its getting old.
and im getting sick of it.


"you smile in sympathy"


o did i say,
im SO happy with my second ink.

I'm off.
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OH HAY, LOOK! PUBLIC POST. [Nov. 2nd, 2009|07:23 pm]

wanderingreen
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IDK anymore ... )
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Rotten Luck [Nov. 1st, 2009|11:53 pm]
saintsatyriasis
A 39.4 deg fever, and an ear infection that requires 01 x anti-biotics, 05 x medication that put me to sleep for almost 14 hours today. I feel weak, my right ear is partially deaf and I feel horrible. All this just 9 days before the A's. Whoopee.
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sometimes trust screws you over. [Nov. 1st, 2009|07:35 pm]

dora_claire
[Current Mood | anxious]
[Current Music |HIM - Pretending]

i dont compromise.



saw neil gaiman today.
sigh.








this part of life is becoming a void without you.





fuck my life, i swear.

I'm off.
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wherein my grades are inversely proportional to the square of my tv-watching hours [Oct. 31st, 2009|11:30 pm]

radon_
[Tags|, , , , , , , ]
[Current Mood | productive]
[Current Music |bt4 - all along the watchtower]

Meeting [info]vvvaudevillian (and possibly [info]plumerri) @ Victoria Theatre tomorrow for Neil Gaiman's talk on Graphic Novels and Fantasy. SO EXCITED ZOMFG. Will probably bring Eternals #1 and my Sandman poster for him to sign, seeing as how I somehow don't own any book of his (what travesty is this, self? brb resisting urge to run out and purchase American Gods. nao.)

Random (TV-related) meme time!

Shamelessly stolen from [info]twentyplanes:
Make a post with posters of your favourite TV shows, thus keeping a record of everything you've watched! Pick your top favourites, pick a few, or pick them all!


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A complete nothing. [Oct. 31st, 2009|01:17 pm]
saintsatyriasis

There is a kind of happiness I feel whenever I spend hours alone by my table studying, or perhaps taking time off studying to read a book on physics and the latest progress in postmodern physics (or post-quantum, string theory era) that no other activity even come close to. There is a kind of joy manipulating numbers to form a coherent statement; a kind of intimacy shared between mathematics and man. There is a kind of power you feel, and as you grow closer and closer to a greater understanding of a subject that you love, it gives you strength as a person, that no miracle or the multitude of promises a religion can claim will ever match up to.

And there is also a great deal of anger when you find out MDA has banned some of your favourite porn sites. I won't resort to using proxy just get to that higher plane of jerkvana, but it has indeed become far more difficult.

Back to my papers. I think for today, I will study outside for a change. Although history brings to mind the countless times I've only stayed for about an hour or so before I become restless and go home, this time will be different. I will order a good cup of coffee (perhaps something I've never tried before yet), start off with a good book (Lee Smolin or William Dunham?) and retreat into my head and chase that feeling I always get whenever I become obsessed with what I study. I shall not procrastinate or people watch (too much). I will get work done.

But first, lunch. Times like these I actually find meal time a chore because there are things I want to do, but my empty stomach speaks louder than everything else. Sigh.

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Network Maintenance - Saturday, October 31, 2009 at 04:00-05:00 GMT/UTC [Oct. 30th, 2009|05:17 pm]

lj_maintenance

[dwell]
EDIT: If you're reading this, our maintenance is OVER! The problem was not found on our equipment, which means we'll have to work with our ISP to fix this small problem -- which also means another maintenance window in the future -- but at least we have eliminated our side.

Thank you everyone, and a special shout out to [info]rekoil for giving me a great suggestion AND also the opportunity to feel like I've just called in to a local radio station.

Have a great day, night or afternoon wherever you may be.

---

Hi everyone, sorry for the late notice but I'm going to have to do some testing on 1 of our 4 internet circuits TONIGHT; Friday night or Saturday morning depending on which time zone you're in.

Most of us shouldn't notice any impact, though there may be some slowness or lag when I switch traffic on to our other ISP circuits and then another hit when I stop the tests. If a page won't load or times out, try hitting refresh 1 or 2 times and it should load then. If it doesn't work at all... trust me, I'll be typing really really really fast to try to undo whatever I just did. Hopefully you'll have some Halloween candy (if you're in the USA and celebrate that kind of thing) nearby to take away the bitterness of a small site outage. :(

Here's the handy-dandy Website That I Always Use to get a feel for when the maintenance will start in your area. Our site traffic historically dips on Friday afternoons until Saturday morning which is why we tend to pick this time for maintenance work.

tech details )

status.livejournal.org will, of course be updated before and after the maintenance window. Or else [info]marta will get mad at me. :D

bt
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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2009|04:05 am]

iadmiregays

HALLELUJA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM DONE WITH MY LTB LEARNING JOURNAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I PUT IN DAMN ALOT OF EFFORT FOR IT, I BETTER GET LIKE FULL MARKS FOR IT LA. OR IF REALLY CANNOT, 14/15 IS OKAY WITH ME ALSO. IT'S LIKE QUITE PRETTY!!!! I NEVER KNEW I COULD ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING WHICH LOOKS NOT BAD AND NOT PUKE-WORTHY! HOORAY!

GEEZ I HAVE TO BE IN SCHOOL IN ABOUT 4 HOURS. I HOPE MY QUIZ GOES AWESOMELY TOMORROW ALSO. NVM I'LL THINK ABOUT IT WHEN I WAKE UP. FOR NOW, I AM DONE WITH MY JOURNAL PEEPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO COMFY BED (: (: (:
 

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LiveJournal Major Notes: Search super-tweak, postcards, and amazing user content! [Oct. 29th, 2009|10:53 am]

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In response to user comments from last week, we want to let you know that we'll remain LJ cut-free for the next month in order to get more eyeballs on our evolving newsletter. As for product coverage, that continues to be our top priority. For more granular detail, however, we recommend you join [info]lj_releases.

Super-tweak for Yandex search

Some of our beta testers expressed privacy concerns using the Yandex search engine. Here's why: Last week, when you ran a search, you could see the usernames (and only the usernames) of everyone who commented on an entry, even if that entry was switched to Private or Friends Only after it was originally indexed. You could NOT see the actual comments from Friends Only or Private posts. In response to your input, we've implemented a fix to keep all user activity currently marked Friends Only or Private completely hidden. If you'd prefer your public content not to be indexed by Yandex, click here and use the settings labeled Search Inclusion (this covers your entire journal) and/or Comment Search Inclusion (which covers comments only). To test drive Yandex search now, click here.

Postcards from the edge

Several years ago, we asked LiveJournal users to send postcards to help us decorate our dull, white-washed offices. Since a good idea warrants repetition, we're at it again (same issue, new address). We hope you'll surround us with LiveJournal love by sending your postcards to Frank the Goat, Esq., c/o LiveJournal, Inc., 539 Bryant Street, Suite 210, San Francisco, CA 94107. We'll post snapshots right here. Be sure to include your username, since we'll randomly pick 10 lucky recipients to win free paid account time.

Conquer Writer's Block

Here are some excerpts from this week's most popular question of the day:

If a friend or relative makes a racist or homophobic remark, do you tend to confront them or let it slide? Are you more likely to confront them if it offends you directly or someone else who seems reluctant to speak up?
  1. I find it easier to stand up for other people, and i wouldn't let it slide if they made a rude or hurtful comment.
  2. Usually if a friend makes a racist or homophobic remark, I tend to let it slide. I think that while i would not say such things myself, I have no right to censor those around me.
  3. This happens all of the time. I confront some relatives, but I refuse to if they are drunk or watch Fox News.
  4. I'd let it slide if it was just a private remark... As much as I despise bigotry and intolerance, I know that you can't change people-they have to change themselves ...
  5. Confront! confront! confront! Politely, but without equivocation.
  6. SPEAK UP. Always, always, always speak up. Letting something slide lets ignorance win. No matter if it offends me directly, or someone else, I will confront the speaker and let them know that's not ok.
  7. I don't get offended personally. As an immigrant, woman, gay and person of color if I took every single potentially offensive remark seriously I wouldn't get anything done.
  8. I punch them in the balls. With my mind.
  9. I do speak up, but often very timidly because I feel that I'm white and therefore I don't really have any authority to lecture someone on what's racist and what isn't...
  10. Generally speaking, I do not let this shit fly, because it reduces me as a person, to this non-person and it replicates the destructive discourse that makes sure that sexual minorities, racial minorities, women, people with disabilities, trans people and every intersection thereof into something other than human... And sometimes... I'm just too tired to deal with it, so I roll my eyes, make a sarcastic remark and hope the conversation moves on quickly.
For more daily questions and user comments, join [info]writersblock. FYI, we don't want to invade your privacy, so we haven't credited individual users for their responses. We'd appreciate your feedback on this!

Spotlight community of the week

We can't resist making one last midnight trip to the ol' pumpkin patch. If you adore crazy costumes, fiendish festivities, and bottomless candy consumption as much as we do, this community has just what it takes to light up your jack-o-lantern.


[info]halloween_fan

Photos of the week

We received so many incredible photos, we had to close our eyes and point. We uploaded a selection of awesome images at our new [info]lj_photophile community. Please join and start posting (try to keep the width at around 625 for the sake of consistency)! We'd love for you to tell us more about your photos! You can help us select spotlight photos by commenting on your favorites. Once again, we thank you for making our online world more beautiful!




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Curtains

Thanks, again, for tuning in. We look forward to seeing you next week.
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